We are headed to a country Fair today! I am excited as I haven't been to a fair in at least 10 years.  I was the 4-H leader for our little town and they used to compete at the local county Fair each year.  The kids learned a lot, and the prize money would pay for their rides on Children's Day and by volunteering at the 4-H building, we were given passes to get into the Fair.  I always liked the animals and the craft displays. 

Ed goes to Virginia next week, so I'll have time to get some craft work done.  It's a good thing since my crafting partner found us a consignment shop to show our wares in.

The Addiction:

An addiction is all consuming.  It makes you plan your whole day around it...you have to make sure you have your drug of choice, you have to plan and take time to use that drug. You need to find a space for "it".

My Addiction is smoking, and it is a giant time suck....you have to have equipment, money and space for it.  You time your day around a "smoke break" (or 40)...it stinks, it's messy, it's unhealthy...but you always think "do I have enough to get by for the next day".  Then there are the non-smokers to think about and the fact that you are ruining your health.

I have quit before, when my kids were little.  A hypnotist came to town and we went.  I worked for 10 years...until I met and fell in love with a smoker.  5 moved and two step children later, I was smoking along with him.   I quit when Sam was pregnant with Evan, but when she went into labor, I picked up a pack of smokes and puffed a trail outside the hospital waiting for her to deliver.   I quit again when we put our house on the market...I wanted a new start, better health and I needed to not stink up the house while we were selling it.  Unfortunetely, the day we moved, Ed ticked me off big time and left his smokes in the truck when I took off....seemed like a good idea at the time.  However, as an offering to the Godess, I decided to quit again on September 1st.   There is another guy in town (my friends Dad) who wants to go with me to the hypnotist, so I'll at least have company.

Now, the count down is on and it makes me nervous....it makes me "panic smoke", lol.  I have done this before and it's not so bad, but I find myself puffing frantically and worrying.  I will use my Wii Fit and suck on lollipops and be fine.  My house will look better and smell batter and I will feel a ton better.  I won't have to worry about finding a place to smoke, buying smokes, making time to smoke...but still, the thought of giving them up makes me panic.

Addictions of any kind, SUCK !

Have a great day!